Should You Divorce Your White Collar Criminal Husband?
To Divorce or not to divorce? That is the question. Statistics say that most marriages do not survive the heartbreak and fall out of white collar crime. Especially if there is a prison sentence longer than five years.
Aside from duration of incarceration, white collar crime is an epic betrayal of trust, responsibility, caring and protection. Without these basic traits in a marriage, (or in a family), there cannot be real love. While it's true that some white collar criminals have mental illnesses of one sort or another which informs their inexplicably egregious behavior, most criminals do what they do because they have the opportunity, motivation and lack a true moral compass. As such, one of the most pressing questions I had after learning of my husband's criminal behavior was this: Did he think of his family and risk our lives anyway? Or, did he simply not consider us at all? I've never been able to get an answer to that question and probably never will, but either way, it's a lose, lose scenario for me and my son.
I was married to my husband for twenty six years. We had known one another since we were in our teens and although our marriage wasn't perfect, I always thought we'd grow old together. Our marriage vows ask us to promise to "love one another for better or worse, in sickness and in health." But those vows don't ask us to lay down and die a thousand deaths because our spouse chose to toss us off a cliff. I truly believe that white collar crime is a form of domestic abuse/terrorism and that it should be treated as such. I didn't want to dissolve our family unit however I feel as if I had no other choice. How could I ever possibly trust my husband again? I'm not advocating that all women run out and divorce their white collar husbands, I am simply pointing out the facts as they are. I believe most marriages can survive infidelity, however, I do not believe that most marriages can survive betrayal on this kind of an epic scale.
There are many women who do choose to stand with their incarcerated husband. Out of fear? Duty? Compassion? I hear of women moving themselves and their children across the country to be with their husbands who have been moved from one penal institution to another, time after time. I have very fixed ideas about women who do this. I know that in their minds they think they are thinking of their children in that they are tying to keep face time going between a child and his/her father and her with her husband. But the reality is, (especially in long term incarceration), making that kind of sacrifice for someone that has treated their spouse and their own children so carelessly, in my opinion, doesn't deserve that kind of attention. There's standing by your man and then there's giving up your life for someone who showed total disregard for your life and the lives of your children. Is that love? Not by any definition that I know of. I believe in compassion and sacrifice but only for those who are truly deserving.
All I am trying to impart here is that it's time for you to think of yourself and your children and to no longer feel an obligation to someone who felt no obligation to you or his family at the time of his crime. I know it's a very complicated situation but broken down into it's most critical parts, you know the truth. And only you can know what it is you can overcome. You will have to search your soul and decide for yourself. The road is long and difficult with or without your spouse by your side but you are stronger than you know and you can stand on your own two feet. Look how far you've come now?
In closing I want to tell you that there was a time after my own divorce, (it was and remains a very painful decision on my part), that I didn't believe in happily ever after. But I was raw then and the idea of falling in love again seemed so remote. Seven years later I am still alone, (by choice), and I am okay with that. I know that love is all around us and it's there for us if we want to try again. But most importantly, I know now what a truly healthy relationship looks like and I wish that there were more of them. It makes me happy to see a couple in love. It gives me hope.
You are not alone. I'm here. Always.
-Lisa
